Let’s dive right in. I have a strong history of heavy drugs and alcohol. I had a really unhealthy childhood with a lot of neglect, abuse, and addiction. I was taught to believe sex was the way to receive love as a young child. I ran away when I was 16 years old. I was an exotic ballerina, a sex worker, a drug dealer, a raver, a fucking professional party girl. I’ve been 5150’d twice when I was 17 &20 years old. I was diagnosed with everything under the sun, and I did try the recommended pharmaceuticals, but they made me sicker. I was raped & I attempted to kill myself five times, but I would always wake up. My goal in life during my late teens and early 20’s, was the escape reality and go hard based on the things I experienced as a child. I did it with sex, drugs, & alcohol. I was never taught how to regulate my emotions or validate the way I was feeling or my experiences, so I would have straight-up tantrums and anger issues. 

In the early years of my twenties, I fell in love with a drug dealer/ addict who treated me so low: physically, sexually, emotionally, and mentally. I had no self-love. I didn’t even know what self-worth was. I had no value within myself, just a pretty face, lost in the fog. My ego was HIGH, so I played the game, & I was good at it. I’ve lived a variety of lives, living the high life of penthouse living, as well as living a life where I had no car, took the bus, and slept on couches. I “did things” to be able to survive. 

I kept hitting the pavement, HARD. No matter how hard I tried to get away from the dark life, the demons would always whisper in my ear. No matter where I ran, they would find me to just pull me back to where I started. Same space, with different people. I wanted out too badly, but I was so lost in my mind…

I finally figured out how to crack the code to rise above all of it. It took me a complete life change and another mental breakdown to see the light again. (You gotta have the lows to know). I was so motivated to shift my life around and not go back. Finding awareness in the saying, “doing something different for different results”, I attracted facilitators who were a huge part of my own personal growth along the way. 

I finally realized that I could only do so much “awakening” by myself. So I reached out and asked for something greater than me and attracted a coach of my own that has a storyline similar to mine, that got out. I learned about Quantum Mechanics & how God is the Source. I started reading the Bible from a Quantum perspective to find out it’s actually a handbook for the human mind and soul! I found the roots of what I was running away from, GENERATIONAL TRAUMAS. 

I have learned to view life and every part of my story from a lateral perspective. I AM NO LONGER A VICTIM.  I have THOUGHT I have done so much wrong in my life, & I have learned the hard way each time, but I am resilient from being someone who had no direction, and I continue to rise above and heal every pattern that I had buried inside my DNA. To forgive & turn my lead into gold.

I am still a work in progress, but I sure do not live where I used to. I wanted to write this because ANYTHING is possible when given the right tools. Later, I was guided to go to school to become an ICF-trained Mindset Coach and found a therapist I truly connected with (hard to find)  who introduced me to Brainspotting & IFS (Internal Family Systems).

These modalities put together are a GAME CHANGER! With all the inner work I spent years doing, Brainspotting mixed with IFS rapidly can integrate within months! She recommended I go add these wonderful modalities to my coaching toolbox to assist individuals with the same determination to grow and move forward from their pasts for a brighter future of freedom. I went to get my certification in Phase 1 Brainspotting and continued my learning in IFS to add to my toolbox.

Throughout everything that I have learned from life experience and the facilitators I have attracted along the way, the most valuable information I have learned is that we can rise above the waters that are drowning us. Anything that tries to gain control over me, I now see the root to shift it. I have been gifted with wisdom beyond worlds & my passion is to help others find their way out too! It’s possible! It is hard work, but do not lose hope. We are in the Age of Awakening.

Everything has meaning behind it with the right perspective. The filters are being removed. The people that are meant to move through this are hitting the pavement and realizing, this is NOT it. The change we desire for the world starts within US. We lead by example and energy multiplies. We create our realities and it all starts with the mind. 

Shed off the layers of yourself that aren’t even yours to carry. Remove the filters that cover your blinded eyes. There is so much more to life than numbing yourself, and that is exactly what the dark wants us to do. DISTRACTION. Wake up and become your optimal self mentally, spiritually, physically, and emotionally. The Creator’s light is within you. No matter what belief system you resonate with, just believe in something greater than YOU.